NikkerZ

It’s been awhile since I’ve stumbled into Tumblr-land-so, I’m here-checking in on everyone!

Looks like everyone is in agreement, bring on 2011!!!!!!!! I think one of my biggest regrets this past year (actually, the past 3) is allowing stress to take over my life and rob me of my creative spirit…..As an artist, I’m always “dreaming”…..always visualizing scenarios and ideas in my head….and I love being in this place-and miss it desperately….unfortunately, I haven’t been able to visit it. The reality of being single, having 3 kids, no job, bills-bills-bills, etc. has aged me and forced me into this serious world of ”day in, day out-please let the heat and electric be on”….almost everything in my life that was deemed as successful was stripped away from me within such a short period of time…I went from proud, independent, fun loving, creative business owner to single-mom of 3-no job-no friends, bills that I can’t pay-haven’t been out on one date in almost 2 years since the divorce-doing my best to put on a brave face for my kids when the reality is, I have no idea how I’m gonna pull Christmas together. It’s impossible for me to slide into my dreamy world where my inspiration and creativity reside when I’m constantly battling. It stunts my MOTIVATION in every facet of my life. I’m not sure how to fix it but I’m NOT going to continue living this way. THIS is no way to live! SO, let’s get on with 2011 and I’m praying that there be one little box of HOPE (along with some handy dandy ideas) be under the Christmas tree this year. A little goes such a long way! :)

Merry Christmas to all of you and may 2011 be the best you’ll ever experience in your lifetime….:) WE GOTTA STAY WHERE THE LIGHT IS!

XO,

NikkerZ